HOHO.
its stil raining outside.
the weather tampered my mood.
i juz cant seem to be fine.
everything arnd me makes me feel empty.
sad things revolvin arnd me.
and how true is xinwei's words whn she say its the brk up season now..
emi and vith.. sydney and his girl.. me and zw.. emi's frd and the stead..
stil worried for joelle. no news frm her or anybody else.
*heavy sigh*
juz wish to cry out the pain.
y is everything turning out baD?
where is the happy 2006? its juz the beginning and its alrd like tat..
how is the remaining 11+ mth gg to be lk? better or worse?
wat the future holds for us, the unknown of the possible happening at the next second is really scary.
for a moment, i wish i was not brought into this world.
its not always a beautiful world.
dere's the down side to it.
and dere seem to be more downs den ups.. and more downs wil be coming in this lifetym whn we start to work.. hv our family and it goes on. problems are endless.
true its abt how we gonna deal it. its the courage to face up with the reality. the ability to stand strong and firm.
whateva ive gone thru in the short 18+ yrs taught me so much.
it mould me into someone diff.
i see myself standing alone, walking alone and enduring thru al rain and storms by myself.
i fall and i learn to pick myself up.
a rather sad life i had.
frds came, stayed, and left.
those i love.. i lost them. over small matters.
it really aches the heart to think about it.
those i wish to hold on to, cant be mine. those i wish to care and love, i cant do the job.
its really true its better to be loved, den to love.
but again, i can nv believe in love again tat easily.
its literally a knife that stabs a heart.
mine is alrd frail and broken; pieced tgt and shattered yet again.
tryin takes courage. takes strength.
im hanging on.
but im seriously tired.
my wish is simple. for all those i love; clover and my family, *you, and those frds out dere who hv been dere for me, to be happy. to have a good life.
tat's al i can ask and pray for.
as for myself, i wil continue this fight, this walk of life myself.
i thank those who have been dere for me always, rain or shine.
at this point of my life, ive seen again who are those who truly loves me and care. those who stayed and hv been always dere no matter the distance, our hearts nv forsake each other. it brings our frdship to yet another lvl of closeness and bonding. i thank God for them. for the strength they given me. i love them to bits. so much tat words cant say it all.
and my boss' baby girl juz came into this world this morn. feeling really happy for him, and sharon.
i wish them all the best and may they be the happiest couple, family ever existed. may the Lord bless them greatly.
loneliness is the biggest pain-